Monday, November 8, 2010

What is it with fat?

I am struggling to understand my thought process. A year ago, I was headed down a physically self-destructive path, eating junk food every day, promising myself I'd quit. Last December, my father died of diabetes, misery & obesity. While I was never close to as fat as he was when he died, I was certainly headed in that direction. His death lit a bonfire under my ass, and I've been going to the gym faithfully ever since. I quickly lost a lot of weight, and have added a good amount of muscle. I'm stronger than I have ever been, and have turned my life around 180 degrees. So why is it that  nasty, fatty, fried chicken and nachos (separate dining events) are still foods I even consider eating (albeit rarely)? Nachos yesterday - a regrettable slip. But fried chicken 24 hours later? Yes, I beat my arms, back, chest and abs into submission today, but that would have happened without the poison I ingested. If I could vomit that fatty, nasty chicken out I would. Hooray for solid mental health! Lack of self discipline will get me nowhere....


  1. It seems to me that the more you slip the more you will slip. Congratulations on overcoming those bad habits. I know how hard it is.

  2. I tend to slip when I'm stressed, like everyone I suppose. But I can't help feeling mad at myself. It won't happen again for a long time, I'm sure. I feel crappy about myself today, but I know that I am actually in very good shape. Pigging out on that fried chicken just brought it all back....and to be fair, I did throw 80% of the skin away, and was in the gym for 90 minutes today...Oh well, learning experience. Thanks!